skys the limit

alright si ihavent been writibg alot lately but its whatever
i gots alot on my mind so im just finna write

im so blessed to have such good friends like seriously. i know that if i would ever need anything my close friends would be there and if anything happened they would be there and that means sooo damn much to me

hmmm boys are so confusing but with this he seems to be good for me i mean he not like completely what i go for but close enough i sorta think

ive realized i need start working on me forfillin my dreams and what i wanna do and what makes me happy. and i havent im always trying to make someone else happy or do something for someone else when i hate them . i have to learn how to be the nice person i can with no bullshitt
thats really iy


seppies a whore :)

sweetest girl

so have wrote ina longgg ass time :/
um alot has happen to me lately and it just showing me how strong i have to be


im ver proud of my bestfriend for getting signed
even tho she be having them destiny's child moments
haha


so i dont inderstand why im going over to septembers and shit
and she tells me to basically bring my whole life with me hahaha ..

okay she keeps saying go to sleep so
goodnight

plus vdays sucked ass !

everything im not made me everything i am

today made me realize alot about boys. how one mintne you can think your ex and you are really good friends and shit then turns out hes basically lying to your face and its effecting the shit outta you which is fucked up because you just went throught hell and back with them and thought there was a chance of you gettin back togehter but he pulls some stupid bullshit ." if you love something let it go and if i comes back then thats how you know"

now talking about new loves, for once i just want a boy to treaat me like a freakin princess spoil me just basically everything ive never had and never thought i was worth . like just stupid little sweet things that make me smile or just suprise me with shit i mean is it really that hard i guess we shall see ..


now i know im fat but like i duno what wrong with me. like she always just makes me feel liek shit for the person i am and she made me this way she never tries to help me but when im at my worst is when she speeds to my side .. i dont need her i dont need anyone im one strong bitch and will prove people wrong. i can resist temptation with food and im going to lose weight. alot of time im just like this is me take me as i am but if my own mother makes me cry every night i think that theres omething wrong with that .. sometimes being your self isnt ever going to be good enough for anyone but when your content with your self then you should be good .

i miss my auntie lois alot she was my rock my happines my life . the one who was there to make me better the only person who ever called me beautiful and meant it i need her sooo much .. :(

life goes on

damn its fucking crazy how fast your life can be takin over some stupid bullshit. like really just becasue one people is something your not you wanna kill him over it. why dont you just try to be like him and get to where he is in like but no you have to take the life of a human that GOD put on this earth ?

who the fuck gives you the power to do that ?
answer is fuckin noone not even GOD gives people that power.

rip brandon g you were honestly the sweetest guy ive met like when i first saw you i was speechless casue you ARE so damn fine and the you were sooo damn nice like people well boys arent made like you anymore and there hard to find if there is one at all in general. Basically what im saying is i believe that GOD takes people for a reason and your reason is that you were doing so much in your if at a young age to prove to younger people like me what we can be capable when we work hard and strive for better than what we are. and with you passin im realizing how short life is and how much i take things for granted. i am blessed to have known you. and ill never EVER forget you.

on the other hand ...

how can you say you love a person when you get some bitch prego thats just plain out fucking stupid and wouldnt wear a condom ?in out fucking stupid and wouldnt wear a condom ? wow talk about cheating .. i cheated once a regret it too the fuckin fullest but no you do some shit a lie about it .. im disgusted with your bitchass stay the FUCK outta my life !

your the reason why i dont like boys becasue you treated me like shit but now i know someone who WILL treat me so much better than you and make you so damn jealous that you lost me tonight is the last night i cry over your ass casue you only gave me one good thing in like and that _ _ _ oh and you showed me that i should give people chances even tho they might let me down big time like you did !