homesick

right now im so said i just wannna cry and cry and cry. im in canada and ill be here for a year i cant change none of it. but it just hurts so bad .

11:37 - do yu remember the time

alright here we go, ive been thinking about alot lately

-friends, family, life, goals, my future, what will tomorrow bring.

&ND honestly im confused. im moving in 2 days and ill be all alone but the good thing is i get a fresh start but its bitersweet cause ive been here for so long i mean some of the people i would be graduaing with ive know since kindergarten. like thats a whole lotta years when you lookback on it then i just have to learn a whole new world caus eits been so long sice ive been in canada. im so scared/nevrous/xicted. im just like everything wrapped in one. the good thing about all of this is i get to go to OAKLAND :) hmmm nothing like being home w/ family for a couple days and a bigass dinner for my dad's birthday

*last weekend my cousins came into town and i stayed with them at there hotel. wow let me tell you how good it feels to have soo many memories with one person and i can talk to her about anything but when we were little my cousin was the first i would wanna kill. thinking about getting a matching tat with her blackass :)

~hmm now love. i thought there would still be something when he came back like at least a friend "iloveyou" but not even close. when i saw him no feelings came back. the only thing there was, was anger i was so madthat i let someone hurt me like he did. he made me feel like noone could ever love me or treat me good in my life like i was neverwrothy of having any good. he had changed so much and i just wanted him outta my life outta my face. i wanted to spit inhis face actually and after all of this i just cried and cried and cried and let verything out and ive never fely better ive met a new guy i dont really know about him im just really exicted for this new start i get to have :)

then theres michael jackson .. im stil in shock .. such a creative amzing yet crazy mind take WAY to early r.i.p. and farrah fawcett when iheard about her i thought about my auntie and damn how much i miss her :(